Suara Hati Ayahku

salam.

hari ni aku demam. Kuatnya demamnya. Syukurlah abstract tesis PHD ku dah selesai. hanya tunggu buat soft binding jer now. and get signature from Prof Dr Sulaiman and Prof Dr Maizam jer. Hope lepaslah senat UTHM ini. Penat lah belajar bila umur dah banyak ni.

2) Kita kena cover banyak benda sekali gus. No wonder ramai org lelaki tua mati awal dari kaum hawa. Cuba check. Buat bancian how many duda and janda umur 50 plus yg masih ada dalam kampung anda. If u r over 50 and u still walk fast n hard pat urself n say Alhamdulilah. Not many of ur geng is still around. U know? What was the cover that I meant here? Expenses, tingkah laku anak-anak kecil dan dewasa, ibu kita yang sakit , rumah dua tiga biji yang masih ada tetapi tidak berpenghuni, dua tiga LOTS tanah yang ada..tetapi tidak diusahakan dgn optima dan ekonomik..adush banyak sekali benda yg nak diuruskan.. lagi pun ikut hadith ..if u hear azan ..u must go and do solat jamaah.. but sometimes u r in the middle of ur business ( lectures, deep reading, thinking etc etc )..but Nabi kata ..if u don't go ..ur ears layak dituangkan timah panas dan mendidih .. bayangkan lah..pesanan nabi kita yg kita puja tu.. kadang-kadang aku confuse yg mana satu nak diutamakan ..Datuk TNC kata if u r teaching u cannot leave ur classroom for prayers .. if u r driving mad on the PLUS highway ..u cannot afford to stop at a masjid .. and attend to ur prayers..so which is which now? kadang-kadnag perut kita lapar waktu noon ..tetapi masa itu lah ..zan dilaungkan .. which to go ..lunch or zohor ..all at 115 ptg.. if u rush so much .. did u notice ..many accidents happen when u rush ..blindly attending to something .. ask the dead one on the roadsides ..why is s/he dead? i think the answer could be .. i rush to fetch my children. thinking about food and thinking about coming back to opiz at 200 pm sharp. all at the same time. So which is which to attend to? If we stay in condominium in big cities .. n when we hear azan call of prayers .. we wanted to go for the prayers ,..but we have to go through many pak guards ..at the security posts.. so how? did u see what i am driving at .. why duda is less in number than janda in ur kampung at age beyond 50 Plus.. Sakit Jantung happen if u rush too much. Everything u do so fast. bahaya tau? Our women wanted to c that everything is in order .. the rest is not important to her anymore .. our rushing is our responsibility.. according to islam... she said again n again.. Our death means syurga ..thats what DR Fatma in ASTRO every friday preaches again and again without fail.. Man? u r very unfortunate lots.. u r going to be in the group of people who are number fewer than the jandas in ur kampung . Pity u? which is which. Professors writing a book(s) ..he stays indoor all days ..regardless how the azan was put to him.. he just continue writing and writings.. he wanted to push new knowledge for the future umah.. thats what he told me ..but which is which? which to go when azan is called out at any particular time. I joined the prayers 5 times a day at a mosque.. By attending so and so .. sooner many kampung folks begin to ask.. Are u a pensioner? laugh. In malay customs, only the pensioners are fit to see to all activities in the mosques. They di tahlil all nights..n enjoying nasi berlauk ayam n macam2 .. see? rezeki ..datang ..mengolek..but i cannot do all that. I have to study for my PHD, do the correction on my thesis.. alas i am afraid i cannot do many things as what 50PLUS men can do most of the time.

But there is another group of men. They go golfings after age 50 and plus. Why are they busy with the golfing things like .. putting a ball into the holes when at this prime age ..the graves are calling us every day. Why? r u not afraid my dear Tuns. dear rich men.. The grave is the place they put our old body .. not the balls in the small holes any more. Hidayat? taufq? where are they? Our accounts closed and we started to live ..unenddingly .. towards the day of resurrections. R u not afraid my old friends?

Wallahualam.

Think my readers. Am i talking the right thing here? Do something fast will u? plz